Betty Mei

I love how many open computers are at the library at 9:15 in the morning. I do not love how I have to be up before 8AM though.

I woke up at 2AM this morning with a horrible sore throat. It sucked so much. I fell back asleep, but when I woke up this morning my throat felt like dying. A group of my friends and I sit in a row during our morning classes, so I think I may have gotten it from them. One of them got sick from his boss, and now I think all of us are getting it. I may have gotten it from Matthew though, because he was hanging out with all of them during the super bowl. He wasn't feeling well last night and he thought it may have been mono. I would have been quite upset if it was mono because that would make me feel even worse everyday than I already do.

Waking up at 7AM everyday sucks so much.

It's a new semester! With all 8AM classes; holy crap. I was dealing with it alright during the first week, but I can already feel the sleepiness settle in as more days go by. I have been relying on coffee to stay awake everyday. Bad! I'm going to become dependent on that stuff, if I'm not already.

I have early morning classes with Turbo Kick, fraternity meetings, and work sprinkled throughout the week. Turbo Kick has been going well, I have been going to every class despite how often I want to skip it. New Years Resolution! I'm all caught up with work too. I had planned on going in yesterday, but I felt like death yesterday when I got home from class. I tried to sleep, but the coffee did not allow me to fall into any sort of deep sleep. Then I sat around watching CSI all day while studying, haha. I can't help it though, the show is so addictive. It makes me want to work for CSI, but I know the reality of the job isn't as awesome as the show depicts it as. I watched about 6 hours of CSI though, I'm so lame.

I was craving fries and went out to get fast food. Uuugh, it was a bad idea because I felt bad the rest of the night. I had been eating pretty well (ie. no greasy foods) and working out, so the fast food just messed with my body. I never realized how lethargic fast food makes me feel.

Never have I looked forward to weekends so much as I do now. Waking up at 6:30 or 7AM is such a pain. I don't know how I worked with 5AM in highschool. It may have had something to do with the fact that I almost went to bed every night at 10, as opposed to my midnight bedtime now. I should change that, but it's hard to go to bed at 10. But yay, it's Friday! Which means going home and sitting on the couch for a few hours watching CSI, haha. No. Well, maybe.

I am just sitting around in the hallway before my class at 11. I should study for my Med Chem exam next week, but eh. I do need to study hardcore this weekend though.

What a random post.
 

Right, so with New Years comes resolutions! I don't think I've ever really set any resolutions before. At least not ones I can remember of or kept.

So, I have many resolutions this year.

1.) Get healthier.
I don't exercise; at least not regularly, so I need to work on that. I've already planned on doing Turbo Kick at the REC. I'm also going to cut back on drinking pop even more. Perhaps energy drinks too. But I may need to coffee for the 8AM class every day of the week. I want to drink more water though. Lastly, I need to stop eating out so much. It'll save me money in the long run. =)

2.) Be more confident.
When I meet new people I determine part of their confidence by whether or not they are the people who seem like they would never do anything clumsy in public and have to apologize for it profusely while feeling like a big idiot. And then there are those who do. I'm in the latter category, and I'm tired of it. I don't want to feel like I have to avoid looking in people's eyes because I'm shy. I had set a goal a while back hoping to be more social and a little less awkward. That's been going well enough, I think, but I believe that if I'm more confident, it'll be even easier to be sociable. Also, I'm 21, I should probably have more faith in myself anyways.

3.) Go to work as scheduled.
My job really doesn't have anybody supervising me, and it doesn't have a set time that I have to come in either. So, I was hired back in October and I've worked maybe a total of 10 hours. Ooooouch. It's because I didn't set a schedule up for myself, indicating that I had to go to work. I was also really busy this past semester with pledging for my fraternities and whatnot. This semester will be different though. I've planned to work at least 13-15 hours a week. Not only will I be more responsible, but I'll also start having more money. I'm thinking about trying to pay rent by myself. I'm a big girl! ( I'm freakin' 21, most girls have been big girls for 3 years by this time)

4.)Dress better.
This will be just a little difficult to do. First, it would require that I have some good taste in clothing and that I have money. It would also require that I stop wearing so many hoodies all the time. But they're so comfortable! I just want to be more presentable. I mean, I haven't ever rolled out of bed and gone to class in jammies, but I want to just dress a little nicer. It'll help with the whole confidence thing.

So, four resolutions set. Let's see how this goes. Good luck to those of you who also have resolutions set! =)

Or just somewhat anti-social.

I don't make good friends very easily. Then again, I don't think many people can make good friends easily. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I don't put very much effort into looking for friends. I kind of let them come to me. Just take my AIMing habits for an example. Very rarely do I initiate conversation with people. People usually have to start IMing me first if they want to talk. When I see people I sort of know (usually from high school), I tend to avoid bumping into them so I can avoid the situations where we would stand around awkwardly saying our obligatory "hi's" and "how are you's" and "what are you up to now's" (haha, how grammatically incorrect).

It's not that I don't want friends. I love friends! I love having people to talk to and hang out with. I'm just afraid of the awkwardness that may follow. I'm not very talkative to people who first meet me. I'd like to think I've changed a bit since I've gone to college, but the whole "awkward silence" thing is still there. Unless the opposite party is a very talkative and opinionated person, we probably won't end up talking much about anything. I find it hard to hold conversations and even harder when I feel the need to wrack my brain in order to find something to talk about.

It's been over two months of summer, and I have hung out with...one friend. A lot of my friends are out of town and I wish that I could go and visit them. My core group of friends have been my college buddies, obviously, but they're in Toledo and my parents are wary of Toledo due to a boy situation. This leaves me with a few of my high school friends who are currently scattered throughout the state. This means I stay at home (and become fatter) for another month.

I brought it up with my mother because my brother has been able to hang out with his friends quite a bit this summer, whereas I had not been able to do that at 16. Then she ranted about how I need to make friends who were in the Pharmacy major so I could end up getting in the program (because these kids have the "secret" to how to get into such a difficult program). So what she wants is for me make friends who I can use.

In the end the sum of it all is: she got upset with me because I can't make friends.

I need a "How to Hold Conversations for Dummies" book or something. Lame.

I have been home since May 4th and all I have really done is work, read, eat, and sleep. I have not seen nor hung out with a friend for over a month now. I'm kind of okay with it because I don't hang out with people a lot anyways, but I miss the social interaction I'm used to having in college. I lived with friends in college, so I got to see them everyday. But now that I'm at home, I don't get to see anyone. It's a little lonely. And I really want to become a little more social so that I don't go through life acting like a hermit because at this rate I could probably live in a shack in the middle of the woods of nowhere and be okay by myself. This IS coming from the girl who claimed she would be a crazy cat lady and be okay with it.

Anyways today an old high school friend asked if I wanted to hang out, and I was ecstatic to finally be able to see someone familiar besides my family. I have been craving to just have some social interaction with people I knew that were my age. We didn't know what we wanted to do quite yet but I had him call me after I asked my mum for permission. Because as a good Chinese daughter you ask for permission to hang out with people..or anything in general. Even if you are 21, a legal adult of three years in the US. (Heck, if you're 35 and still living at home you would still need to ask permission...I hope I'm not going to turn out like that though.) Well, my mother said no. Surprise, surprise. I don't know why I thought I had a chance. Perhaps I thought that even though I was going to hang out with a guy, it was going to be a gay guy and that would be okay. But no. My mother asked why I would want to hang out with "that sort" of people. What, gay people?

My mother is weird like that. Using this experience as an example, I can be friends with homosexual people but heaven forbid I hang out with them. And just to take it one step further, I can hang out with Caucasians, but I'm forbidden from dating them. (Like that's stopping me though...) Sometimes I feel like the only way to make my mother happy is if I surround myself with only Asian people. Of course even then she would find something else to criticize about. Like my butt.

So my shot at improving my social skills have been shot down for the next 2 months seeing as I won't be seeing friendlies until August. Funny, since my mother is always talking about how I can speak for crap (aka I couldn't sweet talk my way out of a paper bag...or something like that). Well, I better go find that nice shack.

I can't dance, so watching groups of people dance their hearts out in competition amazes me. The first season of this show aired a few months ago, and I watched it religiously every Thursday with my roommate. We watched in awe as these groups of people spun on their heads and did things with their legs and arms that I can't even begin to explain.

For the finale of the season my roommate and I thought that our two top favorite teams, JabbawockeeZ and Kaba Modern, would duel it out in the end for the title of America's Best Dance Crew. It would have been an AMAZING finale because these two groups were incredible. But no, we ended up with a battle between a crew from the East vs. a crew from the West (JabbawockeeZ). I was so disappointed because I really wanted to see the top two crews battle. (There was talk about it having been a set up just so MTV could include support from viewers from both ends of the nation.) But it's okay, because the JabbawockeeZ won.

Just so you can watch them in their amazingness here's my favorite dance from them to "PYT:"


And this is my favorite dance from Kaba Modern to "Sensual Seduction:"


The crew picking for season two was on yesterday, and I kind of feel like it will be disappointing. I can't help but compare every crew to my original favorites. I'll probably continue to watch this season nonetheless (June 19th at 10PM).


I wish I knew how to dance. =(

I'm sorry LJ and LJ friendlies! I've neglected you all for over a year. =( I'm such a bad journal-er.

A lot has happened in the time that I have been gone. Nothing really that exciting though. My summer break started after the first week of May and all I have been doing is working and reading. Lots and lots of reading. I have to stuff some sort of information into my head right? I feel the vocabulary I had has slowly started slipping away from me due to all the textbook reading. Thus, I am reading a lot.

So, I'm back. I deleted all my old entries in hopes of starting over, and I am about to update my journal's background. I figured it was time to start changing things around and reorganizing. I realized how I hadn't undated things in so long. On my Uni website one of the security questions was "Who is your favorite person?" I, for the life of me, could not remember who I put down. A security guy from on the phone (from my Uni) informed me it was "something called 'yamapi'." Oh man, haha. Three years has gone by so fast.

Well, I'm off to suffer in the heat of the house and try to update things.